Happy Valentines Day

To those who are goin for dinner and to have happy time..*wink wink* eat slowly and drive safely.

To those goin clubbing...have a great time, and dont get too drink

To those with no dates, try harder, or just go out with the gang.

To those who are not bothered by the fact that its just another comerciallized activity by a capitalist economy that derives pleasure in making the people poorer fo the so called sake of love. Good on you.

And oh...guys, if you forgot your presents, (if you're working..take a half day off..prepare the stuff or if still no time, quickly drive to parkson..its open till 11...wahhaha...or..buy her a box of oranges, it will come in very handy (for her to throw at you) (oh..last time rite..the chinese valentine..they throw orange wan le...so lidat la...be more un..unique)

I'll writesome stuff bout valentine's eve after this blows over..bleh..ehhe

Found this on my comp..apparantly its almost a year old,4 days short.

Of Dialects, Girls, and School

Was having catching up with a friend on matters…

1.dialects, Singapore…blah blah…kch …holland v…series…

2.curtin and some unis…

3.girls

4.cars.

wei: shit la…hols omost over liaw

Friend: I want to find a a girlfriend that is low maintaince, doesn’t give a damn much about critisim…and in fact…fires back critisim, and is open

Wei: If you want to find a girlfriend that is low maintaince, doesn’t give a damn much about critisim…and in fact…fires back critisim, and is open…I think, you better turn gay la…I doubt any girls will qualify.

Unh…FYI this convy is kinda accurate to a point la…

I'm Back!!!

Actually just been lazy...


Gone CNY shopping yet?
I couldnt be bothered to get new stuff...kinda pointless when u can buy a new shirt any given sunday...

anyway..I found some interestinglooking stuff..ranging from the sumo underwear( unh..its really sumo..sizes L-XXXXL....meaning..waist line is round at least 34 inches onwards. go figure

Annen, I found this interesting pair of undies, I was bored when i was looking at the box...saw some interesting stuff on it.

ok ar.. read the last line..heheh



TADAA!!!

Boxers that have a opening ready!! Owh..umm..u can see the brand la...

What this good for?

1. when you need to piss just..slide it to the opening and release!!
2. got better air flow...umm..more unh...comfortable
3. since got opening...no need to take off whole thing liaw mar..so ahem ahem...*wink wink*

okla...I'm bored..and if you're wondering why the photos seem to have lines...I also dont know why...my cam a bit sot ki...

so..if you've liked this post, please donate to the wei-izm k800i and Sony Cybershot T10 charity fund. =)


hehehe..

okui's in aussie land liaw

*sob* no okui to play wif any more...bleh...I WANT MY OKUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


*stomps and throws tantrum*

=)

thanks hon for the okui shell. =) hehehe

its my 21st..hrmm...
nothing much to announce...hahaha

got like 2 hourss left..its 10:19 at the time I'm posting this


to all that gave the pressies and came to damai lagoon wif us...thanks...

to all who wished me happy birthday..thank you alot...

and to that special someone...thank you for all the presents you gave as well as all the memories and also for being wif me the whole time...I hope my wish certainly comes true. =)

I'll probably update about the damai trip once I'm free...and before the 24th hopefully...

Happy New Year


Currently got nothing much to update about.

Kinda packed oso la..alot of stuff to do..
Must finish by the 22nd Jan...hopefully before the 18th can finish la...but donola...bleh


damn..gonna miss her...less than a month left...owh well..

Merry Christmas

Im feeling lazy to post..so Ill just wish everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!

*fireworks*

Can someone...any one tell me, why…is my internet connection so lousy that it cant even stay connected for more than 3 minutes? This is frustrating. Paying for supposedly unlimited monthly use, and yet I can even use what I pay for…And its not refundable, because the speed used it not under their control. Fair enough. But what point is it that I pay for speeds that are even slower than the of a 56k line?

Sure, there are people with no internet connection…blah blah blah. Well...its not about them. Its about me.

I’m sick of hearing the same old excuses, weather will affect, theres a server breakdown in AMERICA. There’s an underwater cable that stated rusting because there rubber protection decided to give way…lalalallalalala…its becoming annoying. Like the tune that gets stuck in your head. Think of that umm...numa numa song.

And I’m sick of making reports, and not getting any solutions. I have had the whole telephone cable fixed. The whole thing changed. The connection to the ports moved. Still no difference. So what exactly is causing this problem? The technicians all come over and say, oh your line. too much resistance, cannot use. I say, the fucking thing has been changed the day before you came. And the previous person who patched it said its good to go. So now I’m wondering, is the dream of having uninterrupted internet connection possible? Or is this internet addict just going to have to deal with it and go to some support group?

What’s worse is that I NEED the internet now. When I do not need the distraction, its ok, the line is good, no interruptions, but come the holidays, the fucking thing goes haywire. Every year the same thing happens. Need I sacrifice a cow to the Great Internet King?

Bleh!

Swinburne on fire!!!

Belated post. the knnccb of a streamyx doesn’t work in monsoon weather…

Actually not the whole building though I would like it if level 2, 6 and 8 were completely burnt. Some part of the roof was burnt. Some room…not sure if the pump room or the elevator machinery got burnt. Some how its lucky tat this happened after the exams…

I would prefer if during exam. =)

The pics…

Taken from Jalan Mendu. My cam not so power…and I noob in phototaking la hor..

Besieds it’s a camera phone, and its not a 3.2 mega…mine only 2 mega nia…

Taken from the bus stop on the other side of the fly over

Taken from the bus stop in front of Swinburne

As can be seen, it didn’t affect any other levels…and oh…even if it affected the 8^th floor…it’s to be on the other side. wink wink

No one was injured; all the staff members were having their lunch in the auditorium.

And no…the exam papers were not burnt along…so bleh.

HOLIDAYSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!

got nothing to do...no car..no going out...no game...pointless to use comp...

feeling fuckstrated..its past frustration already....

if I have never said this before...then I'll say this now...December is a bloody month...a bad month..november too..for some odd reason..porblems always crop up in these two months. Probably exam stress? or probably my life always goes on playback? its a month full of reflection. Maybe thats why I am more moody.

I am tired of having to keep to being nice, and having to control myself, I want to let go. let go of all problems and not think about them any longer.

Its nothing to do with you, its just that the problems all become amplified during this time. Maye its because December has always been significant, maybe its because of January? I dont know. Maybe I'm trying too hard to run away from all this. I hate this feeling.

Gah! stupid holidays...waste money nia...

ITS OVER!!!!!

sem 2 2006 is officially over...


finishd all me papers...dono pass all..hope alls well la...

old newspaper!

distracted now...bleh...

goin back to making the consilidation entries in a bit...

Some newspaper collecting van passed by
this is what i heard

old newspaper...beli surat khabar lama...nanti kereta rosak...

translation of the malay parts, buying of old newspapers...this vehicle will be/is damaged...

was thinking wtf?!?!

maybe i should actually concentrate..hmm...

4 days left...woo hoo!!!!


cant wait for hols..
donno wanna start work when...
then my 21st, then 4 days later results out...then...about 1 week later...dear leaves to melb...ish annen its dear's bday...muahahah!! celebrate on the plane...i tink...


gah!
back to work

2 down..2 to go

bleh...havent been good lately...paranoid...


ebiz and corp on same day...better do well...
1 more screw up and its delayed one year...fark!

will not screw up...must not...

omost there

finals coming up.

finishing on the 5th

1st paper on the 28th...then..30th...final 2 on 5th...

jj if ur reading this..kia...we go get some caffiene on the 5th nite or sumthing...


bleh,,
then its the countdown to work...annen my 21st...annen having to send dear off to melb...

sometimes its pointless to even try.
some how everything always falls apart.


bleh...currently feeling kinda fucked...

=( i have low bone density..

Apparantly…Im suffering from calcium deficiency. Or that’s what the bone density test says.


Just got back from a free scan at some pharmacy near me house. I was bored ok? Followed dad to get some supplements then I saw the flyer…figured I should try. Wanna know why I kept breaking my bones or injuring myself mar…

Apparantly, its only ok for those above 21 to scan their bones…coz the machine is stupid that way. Hahaha

I have the bone density of a 40 year old male. Wtf?!?!?!?

A normal male in the 20s should have the density of 104, mine is like an man aged close to 40…or 40 which is 80. Wahhah...actually roughly 88 la. But hehe.


Think this is due to me not exercising at all…SwinGym here I come!!!

Now Im gonna hafta go do a high calcium diet. Bleh


hehehe

Every sesmester should start with a theme. the theme for this sem shall be project 3.0.
For all those that do not understand, project 3.0 is a project which i am planning and burning to go into.

3.0 is a symbolisme for my aims for this semester in my studies as well as extra curricular activities. the reason i chose this number is beacuse of this fact: for a 2nd class upper honors level, the cgpa has to be at least 3.3. that means that consistantly scoring minmum of 2 C and 2 D. However. as my aim is to infact raise my cgpa which is in shit mode, i shall be targetting a 3 C and 1 D/HD for my current semester's results.


I suppose i should i can say at this moment, I feel inspired. at least i have found some form of motivation. the motivating factor: most companies want good results. and if i even wanna think of joining the Big 4...i have a bloody long way to go. Evne smaller companies want better than best results.

this is what project 3.0 is about.

3 also symbolises the number of months i have arranged to ensure that i will change my life as it is. in 3 months...i plan to see a more studious me. a more serious me. *mebbe more crap on my blogs than in real life* and hopefully a more fitter if not leaner me.

3 months of no supper. ahh..the results better pay off.
the purpose of writing this is to remind myuself of the importance of this project.

owh well...now i'll have to start asking for loadsa help. if i dont go to the nut house. its all worth it.

a toast, to myself, for the success of this project.

-wei-

yay!! hols are over

weee!!!its the start of a new semester...im so happy to be back studying. owh wow...fantastic man. i can imagine seeing ew ppl..and prolly working wif otheres. its fun man...

bs. repeating another fuckign subject...mcb.
need to pia. the plan...effective monday. msn at 1030 pm onwards
rest of the time study or do something productive...like maybe write a story. or study. or revise. or make a sodding timetable tat i can stick to.

i need a 3 for my cgpa. not enuf as of now...fark it.

lalalala

this has been loadsa fun. weee!!!!!!!!

bleh..

4meme

Hen jus tagged me to do this. So bleh.


4 jobs I would stink at:

1. Statistician (correct spelling?) Did I mention it before…I don’t really like numbers…bleh
2. Musician: I cant even read music notes…And I don’t/can’t play any instruments
3. Law Enforcer: Waahahahahaha...you get my point.
4. physicatrist: I would love to be one. But I think me patients/client would be beaten to death if they bore me…
4 nicknames I’m making up for myself:

1. Wei
2. Wabbit
3. Cla
4. Clarey

4 movies I can watch over and over:

1. 50 First Dates
2. American History X
3. Fast and Furious Series
4. umm..pass?

If it were song I think should be easier for me to say tho…

4 alcoholic beverages I enjoy from time to time:

1. St Miguel
2. Some Japanese whisky…forgot the name
3. Tuak…
4. ummm…pass again?

Trying not to drink…bleh…bad for health you know. =P

4 fantastic destinations I would like to go to on vacation before I pass out:

1.Some random European country
2. China
3. South America
4. Some unnamed continent in which I can run away to.


4 things I love to do on weekends:

1. Chatting
2. Reading
3. Surfing the web
4. I’ll tell you when I’ve figured the fourth one out.

4 celebrities I would like to go on a big date with:


1. Alexis Bledel (don worry, you’re better than her k?)
2. Keira Knightley
3. Julia Stiles
4. Reese Witherspoon



4 objects I could not live without:

1. Computer
2. Handphone
3. Internet (that an object?)
4. Cars


Lets see…I did a survey on this and Im giving the same stupid answers

4 gadgets I do not have, which I would like to have:

1. iPod Nano
2. A new Laptop
3. Sony Ericsson K800
4. Plasma TV

4 “poor souls” tagged:

1. Linda
2. Cassie
3. Boinks
4. who ever reads my blog


Muahahaha!!! Now write people…write…

Im tired. And grouchy. Havent been able to sleep since yesterday. Bad timing. It keeps replaying and my imagination keeps it to that point. Im tired. I need rest. I dont want to know anymore. I dont even feel like caring. Maybe I should give up. Wasnt so tough when i planned it. the process was bad. When I try to sleep, I keep thinking...why??? No answers.

I dont really want to care any moire. Ill leave it as it is. Im really confused right now with what i intend to do about it. Ill let time take its place.


to someone who played a rather significant role in the past.

you know what. This is exactly why i never could find someone better or like you. I am indecisive. You were exactly what I wanted. But I never saw it that way. I thought it was something else. Its been years. You've got your new friends, I have mine. I took a while to walk off everything. I wouldnt have learnt if it wasnt coz of you. I thank you for everything. Even though you wont ever see this. You were right all along. You prpbably would never know what i felt that time. you should probably not also. I dont want you to see me that way. I missed you so fucking much then. IT wasnt easy being in the same fucking class, sitting a few tables away. Maybe you felt that way too. I dont know.

This seriously feels like an old scar being ripped open and left to bleed. I dont know if you even know this. I never explained. There is no point revisiting the past. Live for today. you was always the one I based all on. Now Im going back into depression mode whenever I think of you again. I dont see why I had to do what I did.

Rather fuked up...

Now you know wy I dont want to meet you when you get back or even call you when you;re there. Friends sure. But I dont know if i actually ever moved on at all.



To someone else who may be reading this blog


You may never understand. I 've been trying to make you see all this while. And when someone else comes into the picture...I feel stupid. What is it that makes you tick? Im still trying to figure you out. I bet you knew it all along. I dont know any more. All I know is that I want you.

Right…exams over…I’m not exactly in a holiday mood. Need to drown out all my thoughts…Alcohol session anyone? I’ve got 2 bottles of sugarcane tuak and I’ll share one with you (if you end up getting so high and humping a lamp post I will not be held responsible)…


Was tagged a while back…think last month…too lazy to write this out and was kinda trying to rush me studies. So bleh.

Im supposed to come up with 8 different point about my perfect lover. Hmmm…

OK…the first one...

Gender : I’m into girls…still…sorry guys…

The different points ar…unh…physical or personal ? Nm la…later you all call me horny and perverted.

1. She has to be…around my height.
2. Someone I can talk to without and look at getting bored.
3. Doesn’t smoke drinking is fine…smoking is annoying.
4. She definatly has to accept me for being me.
5. She has to be able to communicate with ME, my friends and family (that’s a bit further down the road)
6. She should be able to cook la…I mean…seriously…Its not that hard to make maggi mee with meat balls and an egg ok?
7. She should be caring, to everyone…but me more important la…all about me what. (if this really happens its gonna be I love her…she loves me and I love me)
8. Sporting and supportive.

Actually can list a lot more le…but Im a bit lazy right now…

Bleh…I tag…Whoever is reading this. Muahahaha!

searching for the true wei

Dear God,


I know its been a while since i've actually sat down and actually thought about you.
I also know that its been a while since I've actually been rational. I know I havent been repenting, and I havent even bothered to think about anything.


Its a trend isnt it? Everytime I feel depressed or get involved in things I cannot control or when I get near to my examinations, I turn to You? Then when everythign is over...I'm back to where I was.

I dont know if that dream I had was a message from you. I've stopped dreaming..or maybe I just cant remember any dreams, You should know, after all you do know everything, even this letter I'm typing.

I dont know what snapped. Maybe it was the pressure of following you ways, maybe I just couldnt turn my back against the wishes of my family, maybe I'm just plain indecisive. Ahh...being indecisive, that is another matter we should look at wouldnt we?

I dont know what is real anymore.

I'm sure that dream was a message, a wake up call of sorts. I just wanted to say that it still bothers me when I think of it.


I'll get back to you soon. I need some time to actually complete my revision.

And oh, can I ask of you to help me in rediscovering myself? and also in everythign else?

For now, like usual the only thing I want to ask if for peace of mind. A calm breeze that cools me, a hunger to learn, the will to succeed, and teh raw confidence that I need to score for this exams. I know...its late...I started really late.

Thank You.
-wei-

untitled

writing for oneself is teh best thing to do. allows one to analyse thier own private thoughts. questions oneself in ways others dare not or never considered.


i write for my own entertainment.
what i think is funny may not appeal to others. what i do may be offensive to some.

i am bored.

exams soon.
im not so screwed for now...i finally understand how to do mdm...job order/process costing...i feel so proud...PROUD!!! hey...i did it slowly...guess i shud b passing tat sub. fis...not too sure..i knwo my problems are in depreciation...and the bank reconciliation...mainly...and unh...the shares thingy...i have not much idea...never paid much attention in class...law...pretty much screwed still...never written one single essay...cept for the ones in the test...hope i wont screw this round.


bleh

this is getting worse...it was just a mild pain a few months back...now the pain is more intense...i cannot stand up for long periods...i cannot sit for too long...and i cannot sleep on my side...which doesnt really matter..coz i sleep on my tummy...hehe...but when i wake...i can start feeling the pain...


Its either that i fell on my back...or i was hit in some fight before...cant remember why. i think is more like i twisted my back. every year its the same...i think i better go get this problem checked.

argh...think ill go for a nice body massage and tell the massuese(that how its spelt?) to help me out...bleh..dono any chiropractors and i dont want to be put in a brace and have to constantly go hospital for treatment...


fark...im not even 21 and im already feeling this. some how it makes me not so optimistic about my own future health


owh...i read an article...sed something bout stretching it...rock climbing...Kuching got rocks meh?

bleh...prolly will have to put on hold the kayaking expeditions till i get my back fixed...

Been listenign to robbie williams alot. theres this one song...cat remember which...i think its advertising space. one of the lyrics...im not afraid of dying, i just dont want.


for some reasons it reminds me of some stuff that happed a while back. bleh...unhappy memories. was thinking of it again lately...what would happen if i were to die? what have i done? what impact and influence have i made on the lives of others? what would they say about me? what would be the memories of me that they would treasure most?

would they remember me even if ive been gone for a while? would they even bother still?

i figure theres like a few thing those taht know me would remember...my whacked ideas, the disturbing glimpses to my darker more temperamental side, and the lollipop boy.


no...im not suicidal....just thinking...i mean...we wont know what would happen next. we cannot predict the future...we cannot live for yesterday...and we cannot live for today....we need to live for tomorrow. if you dont get me...its like this...what you do today would influence what would happen to you tomorrow. i cant really explain it...but its like one of the newton laws...for every action there is an equal reaction...its like yin and yang.


no restart buttons in life. mite as well apologize and appreciate those around me while im still living...


so here....

i apologize for what ive said, what ive done to hurt you all. i understand that its prolly too late to undo somethings that i should have never done.

tis is one to someone. i dont know if you read this blog..but screw it...i apologized...a sorry like you said means nothing anymore

i cant take back those words. its not like i still can have you here with me. theres nothing left in between us...we are only acquaintances now.


bleh. screw it...over for so long. was fun while it all lasted.

so heres one for my friends and to those who know me.


its been a great ride. its been a blast knowing all you peeps...i cant tell you how much i appreciate you guys.thanks for everything..even if you didnt give me anythign...wahaha...*grin*

to my family...thanks for all teh support and everything, even though ive been abrat you put up with it and i appreciate you all for it.


and no...this is not a suicide note ok?

i still got a good 60 years (80 is kinda old liaw hor??)

numbers...numbers...numbers...

there is no name. only numbers. everything around us is governed by it. numbers, that is. disagree that we are nothing but numbers? look at you identity cards, or drivers licnese or any form of identification document you can lay your hands on. see those numbers there? there. proof.

lets look at this in another way. a table needs 4 legs to stand stable. or 3 legs for tat matter...but the issue of stability is another. see...number. physics is all bout the numbers, even the words you read on your screen are formed from numbers.

our brain makes millions of calculations whenever we do anything..even typing this requires my brain to do massive calculations...which i cannot conciously feel.

numbers make or break us. we have people killing themselves because they recieved low marks for their test or wad ever. we have people becoming ceos or wad not because of numbers...meaning sales or some random decision. everything is a number. even chance is a number.

we are nothing but numbers. there is a God. he created us within a set number of days. see...numbers again. i have no idea wad numerology is but...bleh screw tat. we are all numbers.


everythign you and i do are related to numbers. what you eat today is a number...why? because of the monetary value attached to it. the emotional value is a whole different game.
so we hate math. but we still cannot run from numbers. even doing subject where u expect there not to be any numbers...there still are numbers. like lets say...marketing...theres many numbers in it. selling pirated goods? also numbers...taking chances. we all are numbers, living in a numbered world, with no other number alike us. there are no two individuals who are alike you say. i tell you thats a lie. see...two is a number. so therefore proving my point again. we are numbers. there is no such thing as individuality. we all confrom to numbers. the rule of the numbers. numbers rule us. they rule our lives. we live a proven and constantly modified formula. the formula has again, numbers.

numbers numbers numbers. its all about the numbers. nothign else matters. even ozygwn has a number. hydrogen has a number, uranuium has a number. everything is a number. we are all numbers

we cannot run from it. we are all numbers.



this is what happens if you do an accounting assignment at the last minute...

of handphones and add-ons

phone: SE K750i

phone price as when i bought it.
1200 ( that was like unh...3-4 months back)

current additions to the mobile as of now.
160(memory)+6(crystal casing)+16.50(screen protector)
=182.50


the firmware upgrade would prolly b done next week. and the housing...im still dwelling on it. and oh...theres the adapter for the earphones also.

30(firmware upgrade)+80(new housing-silver)+ 20(adapter)
=130

the housing and adapter prices were taken off lelong. not sure if its the confirmed price. the firmware upgrade i can do it myself...but i dont feel too confident...mite as well spend the 30...besides its still warrantied.


shit...

if i total the add-ons to the phone it comes up to roughly 312.50

for that i can proly get another phone.

hias...damn...still might add some more stuff. so much for buying a k750. the k800 shud b out soon... prolly wait another year....but by then i cant use my memory stick liaw...its a totally diff one. not the same...so ive heard. screw it. ill stick to this phone till 3G really beomes important or when i finish my studies. Thas like...in....i hope....2 years? (1 sem and one year...add another sem...so i think tats 2 rite?)

i may forgive you but i will not forget it.

...

dont you hate it when you get blamed for no reason? have your name suddenly called out when you did nothing? been ignored when you try to make a suggestion? get left out?

not a very good day today...


suddenly im beginning to rethink all me so called friendship with alot of people.

i know i know...this is not supposed to be a personal blog, its meant to be anything but personal.

but today is different. im feeling fucking sick of all them. fuck it. i think i should no longer speak to any of them after im done with this semester. yea..fall out. tats a great idea. dont bother to mix with them. their loss.

first thing...they do it again. leave without me...im waiting for tehm and they leave without waiting for me...expect me to call them..wtf? fine..nm....i can go with others...

next...i meet up at school..and for no reason talk crap about me? who the fuck do you think you are? im calm...ill ignore you. in fact i dont intend to let this go. i have a tendency...no...its actually a bad habit...(cue michael tolcher - bad habits)

ill remember this.

then going to class...i go in later...still early...but i seek a hiden spot. where i can see the lec but not them. the tat fucker calls out my name for no bloody reason...asking where am i...seriously...you saw me walking to the back. why the fuck as so much? dumb ass! then...lecture goes on. im sitting at the back quietly trying to absorb. the people around me are getting noisier...so the lecturer turns around and hints to them to quieten down. then again that fucker calls my name. i mean seriously, im the quiet one...they are the ones talking and not paying attention them selves and accuse me. nm...ill brew over it.

break time. one of those asses comes and ask me if im pissed, i decide to ignore and fake a nap...i see the rest walking to the lec...ive no sodding idea why. and i couldnt be bothered. afterall...they didnt tell me anything in the first place.

mic asks to interview me...it goes past break...im sitting there still continuing the interview...and i also wanna look at her..not mic...the other one...heheh

fine lo...interview continues to class end...but class ends earlier. they call me..but i ignore...i mean..seriously..walk to me and tell me...personally...

dont expect me to be superman and know you want to talk to me. and you go off to someplace and dont inform me of wad you want to discuss. knn

fine...so i temporarily halt the interview and go down to serach..figured they'll b in the lobby...yea..i have no sodding idea what they are talking about. so bleh.

then they say they wanna go do wad shit. donno...i say i gtg at 330. then i say continue at lib so i can finish my interview. fine lo..let them enjoy waiting while i finish it off.

bleh..ive had enough...im losing it...

fuck them all...

ill do this one job then ill leave the building.

A figment of your hyperactive imagination.

A figment of your hyperactive imagination.

That’s exactly what I am today.
What a perfectly strange thing to say
I have begun to doubt it all.
Everything is all but rational.

A guest in your mind
An illusive figure to find
An ideal in a cynical world


I cant write a poem. The above is proof. I have an inability to rhyme. Doesn’t matter does it.

I am Wei. I am the one. I am the Chosen One. I am the perfect personifaction of the idealistic mindset that you have. I am the Twisted One. I am the Quiet One. I am everything. For I am the greatest creation of your imagination. I am the visual and physical proof of your ideals, belief and general line of thought.

I am all but a figment of your imagination. I can be everything you want me to be. I can be your knight in shining armour. I am the one to sweep you off your feet. I can be your tag team partner. I can help you bash your worst nightmares to pulp. I can do everyting you can imagine me to do. I can do anything that you can imagine. For I am after all a figment of your imagination.

I do not exist in reality. In fact, you cannot differentiate actual reality from your own. You seek to replace the hurt and the anger in the world with your love and care. You refuse to believe that there is nothing that you can undo. You are unable to find the rational self you try so hard to be.

I am all but a figment of your hyperactive imagination. You seek the truth and yet you hold yourself back. You desire to show to the world yourself, but you trip on your own laces. You pretend to be someone who you aren’t because you feel as though you cannot be who you really are.

of dragging 3 speed automatics

YEa...

Part one of possibly a three part tribute to my reckless and crappy driving skills 3 years back

This is mostly bout my adventures and misadventures driving the blue wira.

the trusty old blue proton wira...(you can start making jokes bout the colour and the car...)

I'm nuts...i havent done this in ages.

Well the car's still in the workshop...sod it...still a three speeder...why not let me have the bloody 4 speeder tranny...at least i can actually think about hitting 120 without hitting the bloody red line.

ok...sure you're wondering what the hell can i do with a 3 speed auto tranny...NOTHING!!!

first gear is round wad...25kmh ? didnt red line it...sodding first gear...wad can u expect me to do with it? "cheng lin"???


second...unh...think the furthest was round 80kmh...at close to 4.5k rpm. hen u remember o not wad was the tacometer reading?

third and final gear..done on the jalan song straight...was 115kmh...reaching 5k rpm...was reaching the sodding traffic light and the car was shaking already...wad to do..light wad..

i remember one time when i revved...literally revved to the red line (5k rpm) coming out of a junction...blame it on being not used to it...and my heavy foot.

drifting

yes...ladies and gentlemen...you can drift a front wheel drive proton wira with an automatic tranny...

actually more like weight shifting.

did a stupid thing bout a year ago...almost killed meself and totalled the car. luckily...there was no other cars on the road tat day.

theres this turn near a proton showroom (the one near Mr Wong's tuition)

i was speeding on a slick road...and slammed the brakes while about to turn....the front wheel spun out...and the rear was thrown. i have no stabilisers on my car...and the wheels were balding..so yea.

i managed to keep the car on the inside of the curve...nearly missing the curb...dont ask why i do such stupid things...its a once in a blue moon thing...and i think i was a bit high...listening and thumping to the beat of Daddy Yankee's Gasolina.


i cant think of any other incidents which have involved this car at the moment...ill slowly write up more...bleh. heheh

anyone out there?!?!?!

oh wow...

this is kinda a late post...heard some stupid ad on the radio ages ago...was so damn annoying i just had to mock it.


girl: my mummy says milk is good for your bones
boy: bread has milk
girl: dont be silly..bread doesnt have milk
boy: yes it does *squeezes bread...a moo is heard*
girl:hehehe *squeezes bread*

something lidat...no...lets not be stupid here...i remember thinking to myself, doesnt white bread already have pepejal susu...milk solids or wadever...donnola..(read the ramuan list on teh wrapper/plastic of the bread)

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
im beginning to wonder who actually reads this blog. or is it me only.

somehow i feel like the reason im writing is merely to amuse myself and not others. therefore im not ever bothering to do anything about this blog but write nonsense.

bleh.

im running dry. where is the inspiration when you need it?

i seem to find mine in the oddest of things. dont ask why. its just that way.

3 layered Ice Lemon Tea

We've all heard the fuss and tasted the famous 3 layered Teh C Peng...which eventually gave birth to teh 5 layer teh c peng...then to the seven layer...ad then to Only-God-Knows-How-Many-Layer Teh C peng.


As part of the effort tostart making the multi layered tea based drinks poplar i intoduce to you all the 3 layer ice lemon tea.

(photos to come later)



layer 1. ice
layer 2. tea...the thicker the better...remeber...its not the length of time u take to brew the tea but the amount of leaves you add.
layer 3. sugar syrup...u can try usng gula melaka too...

muahahah!
and oh the lemon!


heres the recipe...

1.blend the ice in a blender/food processor...(6 cubes of ice per person) with lemon juice of half a lemon and some zest and some lime juice.

2.put hot water (almost boiling, meaning...the first wisp of steam)into a mug. put two mayang tea tea bags inside.

3.slice them lemons

4. wait for teh tea to brew...roughl 5 minutes...gotta be dark.

5. take tea bags out and pour tea into 2 saperate glasses

6. put lemon slices into tea. and the sugar syrup. How sweet you want t...its your call...normally one tablepoon of the sugar syrup is sufficent for me.

7. scoop the ice and place it on the tea.

theres your 3 layer ice lemon tea...




ps...if you were expecting a seriously 3 layered ILT...i think you're drunk...muahhaha

Random drink orders at kopitiams

at a coffeeshop

ok...two incidents that have happened. Ke-blur-an in action: Its either me or the person taking my order...

1.
waitress:minum apa?
wei: ice lemon tea biasa.
waitress: apa?!?!?
wei: ice lemon tea la...tak mahu its 3 layer spesial punya.
waitress: teh c peng ka?
wei: ice lemon tea la!
waitress: oh...

*walks away*

i only realised the minstake after she left. was too engrossed looking at the 3 layer teh c peng banner.


2.

waitress: minum apa?
wei: hot lemon tea
waitress: hunh? apa?
wei: teh limau panas *start looking at what the waitress is writing* *reads the words air limau*
wei: teh limau panas...*to reconfirm*
waitress: ok

wei: *mentions that the order written on the paper is wrong, hopes the waitress didnt misintepret*

*waiting fro drinks to arrive*

waitress: *puts drinks on table*
wei: wtf?*not tat loudly la* apa ini?
waitress: air limau panas
wei: -_-||| *thinks to self...knn..lucky today i sore throat or else I'm so gonna verbally abuse you*
wei: tadi saya panggil the limau panas...clears throat...ahhh...tak apa la!
waitress: *no comment*


bleh. lesson of the day: when ordering drinks in kopitiams, use malay, and if you want hot lemon tea, say teh lemon panas!

Teddy Geiger - For you I will (Confidence)

to someone.
dont ask why...i barely know you. shit...im damn distracted. if only i could say all this


Artist: Teddy Geiger
Title: For You I Will (Confidence)

I'm wandering the streets in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be
Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you

I'M GONNA MUSTER EVERY OUNCE OF CONFIDENCE I HAVE
AND CANNONBALL INTO THE WATER
I'M GONNA MUSTER EVERY OUNCE OF CONFIDENCE I HAVE
FOR YOU I WILL FOR YOU I WILL

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all the clutter in my head
Cause I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar
I crossed you in hallways a thousand times
No more camouflage
I want to be exposed
And not be afraid to fall

I'M GONNA MUSTER EVERY OUNCE OF CONFIDENCE I HAVE
AND CANNONBALL INTO THE WATER


I'M GONNA MUSTER EVERY OUNCE OF CONFIDENCE I HAVE
FOR YOU I WILL
ALWAYS WANT WHAT YOU CAN'T HAVE
BUT I GOT TO TRY
I'M GONNA MUSTER EVERY OUNCE OF CONFIDENCE I HAVE
FOR YOU I WILL, FOR YOU I WILL, FOR YOU I WILL

If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood, I would
And shout out your name so it echoes in every room
I would

That's what I'd do
That's what I'd do
To get through to you

I'M GONNA MUSTER EVERY OUNCE OF CONFIDENCE I HAVE
AND CANNONBALL INTO THE WATER
I'M GONNA MUSTER EVERY OUNCE OF CONFIDENCE I HAVE
FOR YOU I WILL
ALWAYS WANT WHAT YOU CAN'T HAVE
BUT I GOT TO TRY
I'M GONNA MUSTER EVERY OUNCE OF CONFIDENCE I HAVE
FOR YOU I WILL, FOR YOU I WILL, FOR YOU I WILL



hias...damn it, why does everything have to be so damn hard?!?!?!?!


Why cant i say it? why do i have to not noe you well enough? why do you have to be so close to being the perfect one ? why?

I am

i am wei
i am wei ping
i am wp
i am clarence
i am cla
i am cla-r
i am klerns
i am hwui
i am ah hwi
i am oh so many people but the same.

i feel so blur. so cold.

no longer shall i try to feel the warmth of her hand.
no longer shall i seek to find the face of an angel
no longer shall i have to try so hard to find another
no longer shall i make myself look like different
no longer shall i scream out loud just to make myself heard
no longer shall i need to try so hard to make thigns work

for when it all ends...its the effort i put in it. even if all fails, its the enregy the heart the experience from it. its not so bad when you think of it.



all i can say is that nothing is always the way it seems

i may have met you today. found what i was looking for and yet not wanting to admit it.

i have not been able to scr3eam and shout all my thoughts...all my emotions...all the conflict within.

i do not see the point of it all..
its not that i havent tried or that i dont want to try.

i just havent decided on both. in fact i dont even want to think of it...

i dont want it to be a permanant thing. i cannot see myself commited into doing all that. yes i am afraid of commitment. I AM AFRAID. see...i said it. theres nothing left to fear.

maybe im not a risk taker by nature. but i want to take this risk so bad. ive take a few before. hell..i even paid for it.

Of Wei and Scams...

Woo hoo!!!!!!!! Im gettign scammed...umm..actually...i mean they trying to scam me of my money. Wahahahha! check this out.

letter number 1

From: "Dr. Best Kone" Add to Address Book
Subject: Urgent Please.
Date: Fri, 24 Feb 2006 14:24:48 +0000

Dear ,

Greeting to you,
I am Dr. Best Kone from the northern part of burkina faso.I want to
seek
your assistance after my discovery during auditing in my bank as am the
manager of Bill and Exchange at the Foriegn Remittance Department of
BANK OF
AFRICA,(B.O.A.) In my department we discovered an abandoned sum of
USD$10.8million US dollars in an account that belongs to one of our
foreign
customers who died along with his entire family in plane Crash since
2000,

Since his death, we have been expecting his next of Kin to come over
and
claim his money because we can not release it unless somebody applies
for it
as next of Kin or relation to the deceased as indicated in our banking
and
financial policies but unfortunately all the efforts proved abortive.

IT is therefore upon this discovery that I decided as the head of my
department to make this business proposal to you and release the money
to
you as the next of kin or relation to the deceased for safety and
subsequent
disbursement since nobody is coming for it and we don't want this money
to
go into the Bank treasury as unclaimed bills.

Do not view this as been illegal but an opportunity for us to help
enrich
our hope in life instead of the bank converting this much money to the
security funds.You should not nurse any atom of fear as all required
arrangements have been made for the smooth transfer of this funds and
your
acceptance is what will crown this effort.

We will conclude this operation within 14 banking days based on the
amount
of coperation you will contribute.

Thank you for your understanding as await your urgent response to
enable me
give you more details.


Remain blessed,
Dr. Best Kone.


letter number 2
From: "ibrahim hamza" Add to Address Book
Subject: REPLY IMMIDIATELY PLEASE.
Date: Thu, 09 Mar 2006 12:59:20 +0000

Confidential proposal from,
Mr. .HRAHIM HAZAM

The Chief Auditor Incharge,
African Developmant Bank{ADB}.
Ouagadougou Burkina Faso.
West Africa.

Dear Partner,

I presumed that all is well with you and your family.Please let this do not be a surprise proposal to you because i got your contact information from the international directory in few weeks ago before i decided to contact on this magnitude and lucrative transaction for our future survival in
life.Moreover, i have laid all the solemn trust in you before i decided to disclose this successful & confidential transaction to you.

I am Mr.HRAHIM HAZAM, THE CHIEF AUDITOR INCHARGE OF FOREIGN REMITTANCE UNIT of our bank and i have had the intent o contact you over this financial transaction worth the sum of NINTEEN MILLION, THREE HUNDRED THOUSAND UNITED STATES DOLLARS ($19,300,000.00 ) for our success.This is an abandoned sum that belongs to one of our bank foreign customers who died along with his entire family through plane crash disaster since few years ago.

Meanwhile i was very fortune to came across the deceased file when i was arranging the
old and abandoned customers files in other to sign and submit to the entire bank management for an official re-documentation and audit of the year against 2007.

Be informed clearly that it was stated in our banking rules and regulations which was signed lawfully that if such fund remains unclaimed till the period of 5 years started from the date when the beneficiary died, the money will be transferred into the treasury as an unclaimed fund.As an
honour and advantage bestowed to our foreign customers based on the rules guildeing our bank, it was stated obviously that if you are not a Burkina Faso citizen, you have the absolute authority to claim the fund hence you are a foreigner despite your differences from the county of origin of the deceased.

So the request of you as a foreigner is necessary to apply for the claim and transfer of the fund smoothly into your reliable bank account as the NEXT OF KIN OR EXTENDED RELATIVE to the deceased.On the transfer of this fund into your account, { 39% } being ( US$7,527,000.00) will be your share in respect of the account provision and your assistance rendered during the transfer of the fund into your bank account,{ 52% } being (US$10,036,000.00) will be my share being the codinator of the transaction while the rest { 9% } being (US$1,737,000.00) will be shared to the respectable Organisations Centers such as Charity Organisation, Motherless Babies homes, and helpless disabled people in the World.

If you are really sure of your trustworthy, accountability and confidentiality on his transaction,
contact me and agree that you will not change your mind to cheat or disappoint me when the fund have getting into your account.Besides you should not entertain any fear because i am sure of the success as an insider in the bank ok.

Please reply with the assurance, include your private telephone and fax numbers necessary for facilitate an easy communication in this transaction.As soon as you reply , call me through my private telephone number on (0022676578561) so that i will let you know the next step to follow in order to finalize this transaction immediately.

I expect your urgent communication.
Yours sincerely,

Mr. HRAHIM HAZAM

hahaha damn funny la!

Notice the similarity?!?!?!?!

same style...some rich foreigner dies in a plane crash (im not saying that is the funny part tho) and he leaves behind a massive amount of cash.... and tehy proposing to me to get this money. Muahahhaha! yea...even if i had 15 percent of teh dead guy's money...its not possible for me to get it also wad...ill prolly die poor in the end...all the life savings gone...

ok...now...if you decide to even pull this kinda scams off, please use spellcheck...im sure that your verison of microsoft word has one...


muahahah! tokking bout proposals...im so screwed...i cant write one...knn...damn hiin now la...dont understand how to go along.


ah well...hahaha

rest time before going to school to collect stuff then to hardcore my accs.

Im going ot talk about snakes. And fruits.

This here is the story of of the great wei lost his kung fu powers and was forced to live as an average normal human bean. Yes thats wad we kung fu/martial arts masters in our field call non kungfu.martial arts practicing people.



So...one day, i was walking down the street saying....doowadi di di dum di di du...and an anaconda appeared. He looked at me menacingly and i stared into his cold eyes. Then While staring into his eyes, i thought i caught a reflection of some really hot chick...in a bikini...

The anaconda suddenly backed off and slithered away with its tail between its legs...if it had any....

Then i continueed walking down the street...some ninjas were standing staring at me. I thought they wanted to pick a fight with me. So i pulled out my super kung fu hero move i call the standing snake. They all froze in their steps. They bowed down before me and asked to be forgiven and to become my pupils. I said no...they came to me and whispered into my ear...something....then i told them...i dont do ninjas....

so the ninjas left....then i saw horse and a elephant. I was then thinking bout the scene in Freddy Got Fingered. Wahahahah! Damn funny. The two animals stared at me and said...Why you laughing boy?!?!?!

I was a bit scared. Then I realised. I have the power. I then showed my Standing Snake Stance. The horse brokedown in tears and the elephant passed out.

Then a man who was watching all this approached me, I passed out. He had the Durian Power and Jackfruits !!!!!

When I woke up, I had lost all my Kug Fu powers. The Durian Jackfruit man stole it!!!!

I asked my people, they told me the dark truth. The Durian Jackfruit man is the Dark Kungfu Master. He has the power of durian smell and the great Jackfruit.

Owh well...tats my story.

Food review of the Week

looks like i havent bloged in a bit...here's a food review...actually...2 la.

Remember Thymes? They have a set lunch menu now.

1.Black Pepper chicken with rice
2.Lemon Chicken with rice
3.Mayo Chicken with rice.

I only had the first one so i'll be covering that.





in case i took the pic in the wrong direction...thats chicken on the top, and rice with raisins on top as well as some salad.


ok... on to the review

chicken was good...well done...tender and juicy.
rice...i shall not comment on. personal opinion.

oh...there was soup too...some carrot and donno wad stock soup.

the food was ok...and the set meal comes with a cup or wither tea or coffee....the price...RM 6. its worth it la in my opinion...but ive been growing myself an apptite so i cannot really comment on whether it was filling or not.



Next one: Tom Yam Pork.


Place: King Centre. King Centre.
Look for the laksa stall...its next to it. and look for the shanghai noodle/dim sum place.

Its manned by a thai lady who speaks english and her fren who can speak mandarin. Pretty easy to find...considering the colourful poster.

If you still cannot find it, gimmie a call. IF you dont have my number just mail me.

If you still cannot find it...go Lok Thian and have yourself a higher class and more expensive as well as more unh...halal tom yam.








its tom yam with pork instead of the usual prawns and seafood. the two rectangular yellow thingys you see are dried pork rind...and the round things are *gasp* NOT pig's testicles...those are fish balls.

Ok...the tom yam comes with a small dish taht ahs a lime and some tomyam paste and cili padi. Thats for the kicks...

The tom yam was spicy and sour enough its very fragrant. The pork...lean...almost fatless...if you're hungry for tom yam or wad...go for this...if you prefer sweet and not so hot...go for the seafood ones....its fresh prawns...

The price is around 4.50 per bowl



Ok...im losing my touch...but hey...refreshing mar...

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Schools in session...

Everyday need to go to school. Hais...

Im damn bored

I’m damn bored. Here’s a filler post. Some stuff I picked up off the net.

I was born in the month of January 1986.  My Chinese zodiac shows that I’m a Wood Ox. Apparently those born in the months of January and February are not necessarily the “animals” they think they are.  And this also makes me a Capricorn…

Details bout the ox:

The Ox of Chinese Astrology is no bull in a china shop. Steadfast and solid, this powerful Sign is a born leader, being quite dependable and possessing an innate ability to achieve great things. Oxen tend to be plodding and methodical; they approach projects in the step-by-step manner that serves them best, and they never lose sight of their goal. They are tireless workers who are detail-oriented and believe in doing things right the first time.
The world may perceive Oxen as being far too serious or incapable of loosening up. This sturdy sort is less than social by nature and tends to become introverted in a crowd. To make things worse, they can't be bothered with what other people think and prefer to do what makes them feel best. Behind that calm facade, though, lives an Ox who can feel hurt, lonely and unable to connect with others. Friends and family are a great source of comfort to this beast, even if they don't always understand what makes the Ox tick. As a lover, friend, family member or housemate, the Ox makes a wonderfully strong, tender and affectionate companion who is protective and always reliable.
Out in the world, though, Oxen tend to be stubborn, dogmatic, my-way-or-the-highway kind of people who have no concept of when to back down. Oxen don't care to be pushed, especially since they think they're the good guys of the Chinese Zodiac. There is some truth to that theory, since the Ox is smart, trustworthy, caring and honorable. If you need honest, steady and unbiased advice, call on the Ox.
A good lesson for mighty Oxen is to strive to overcome a judgmental nature that keeps them from getting close to others. If they can learn to value their own good qualities, they'll have more room in their hearts to invite others in.
The most compatible match for an Ox is the Snake or the Rooster.
Taken from: http://chinese.astrology.com/ox.html

Taken from: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ox_%28zodiac%29
Celebrities Born in The Year of Ox

1. Alexander the Great, born 356-323 B.C. King of Macedonia & Greece (known as Greece-Macedon)


2. Napoleon, Emperor of the French


3. Raven-Symoné, actress


4. Meg Ryan, actress and producer


5. Mischa Barton, actress


6. Peter Jackson, filmmaker and producer/director/writer of the well known The Lord of the Rings film trilogy


7. B.B. King, blues singer


8. Laurence Fishburne, actor


9. Madeleine Albright, former United States Secretary of State


10. Colin Powell, former United States Secretary of State


11. The Baroness Thatcher, former British Prime Minister


12. Gerald Ford, former President of the United States


13. Zachary Hanson, American singer and drummer


14. Anthony Hopkins, actor, knight


15. Diana, Princess of Wales, celebrity


16. Jim Carrey, comedian actor


17. Eddie Murphy, comedian and actor


18. Bruce Springsteen, American singer and songwriter


19. Lindsey Buckingham of Fleetwood Mac, American musician


20. Barbara Bush, former First Lady of the United States and mother of George W. Bush


21. Charlie Chaplin, actor, director and producer


22. Jeff Probst, reality television host, game show host


23. Barack Obama, United States Senator from Illinois


24. Adolf Hitler, German dictator, NAZI leader


25. Andy Lau, actor and singer


26. Taksin Chinnawat, Prime Minister of Thailand


27. Rama V the Great, King of Thailand


28. Mahathir Mohamad, Prime Minister of Malaysia


29. Dong Jian Hua, Former head of state of Hong Kong


30. Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono,President of Indonesia


31. Saddam Hussein, former President of the Iraq, war criminal


32. Enrico Fermi,Nuclear Scientist nobel laureate


33. Werner Heisenberg,creator of Quantum Mechanic


34. Three of Seven Astronauts aboard the Challenger,Space Shuttle exploded on reentry


35. Richard Dean Anderson, Actor, Born January 23, 1950 before the end of the year of the Ox (Feb. 16, 1950)

1. OX:February 19, 1901 to February 7, 1902 (metal)February 6, 1913 to January 25, 1914 (water)January 24, 1925 to February 12, 1926 (wood)February 11, 1937 to January 30, 1938 (fire)January 29, 1949 to February 16, 1950 (earth)February 15, 1961 to February 4, 1962 (metal)February 3, 1973 to January 22, 1974 (water)February 20, 1985 to February 8, 1986 (wood)February 7, 1997 to January 27, 1998 (fire)

Celebrities include: Bach - Handel - Van Gogh - Dvorak - Walt Disney - Charles Chaplin

Those born in these years are typically reliable and dependable. Ox personalities often rise to positions of authority and make excellent leaders, however they are seldom elected into high official status because of their lack of flair and excitement.
The Ox achieves through routine hard work and patience...not that the Ox lacks a creative imagination. They are hard-working and persistent, and can stick to a task longer and harder than others. They believe in themselves.
Although seldom romantic, the Ox is very tender and loving to the few lucky enough to receive such attention. They are not social or party animals and tend to be quiet when in groups. People who are around oxen-personalities often misunderstand them, but oxen are patient and caring. An ox is the best friend you could choose.
In business, the Ox often bring prosperity as a result of logical thought and extensive planning. They are exceptional at hand-crafts or the arts.
The Ox has a prime place in Chinese symbolism and appears on the first page of almost every Chinese Almanac. The Ox is a symbol of diligence, perseverance, tenacity and thoroughness.
Taken from: http://qi-journal.com/action.lasso?-Token.SearchID=Astrology%20and%20Zodiac&-Response=culture.asp

Ox (bull, buffalo)
Positive Personality Traits
Steadfast and solid
Born leader with good organization skills
Dependable and responsible
Methodical, approach projects in a step-by-step manner
Never lose sight of their goal
Tireless workers who are detail-oriented and perfectionists
Trustworthy, caring and honourable
Enjoys helping others
Negative Personality Traits
May be too serious or incapable of loosening up
Tends to become introverted in a crowd
Stubborn, dogmatic and have no concept of when to back down
Judgmental nature that keeps them from getting close to others
Remembers old grudges, but can forgive them
Materialistic to some extent
http://library.thinkquest.org/C0113521/lczod.htm#ox



Now about capricorn
Personality Traits
Capricorns live by the steadying hand of their planetary ruler, Saturn. Those born under this sign are noted for being patient, prudent, determined, reliable and disciplined. Saturn brings a constricting influence and yet Capricorns are characterised by a life-long striving towards accomplishment. The sign is known as the most ambitious of the zodiac, driven to climb, yet constantly checked by the pressure of a planet whose nature is to hold back and restrain. As a life-pattern this can result in many crosses to be borne, and Capricorns who have yet to discover their self-worth often feel rather cheated in the gifts that accompany their lot. The tale of Capricorn is that its natives suffer in youth and profit in maturity and old age. Only with the benefit of hindsight can they fully appreciate the process which leads them towards resilience and achievement. The goat is a creature born to tread the rocky and inhospitable path that leads to the mountain heights. Those that stay the course acquire a strength that has been cultivated slowly, deliberately and firmly, their position solidified and their wisdom forged through the hard experience of steadily pursuing their objectives against adversities and obstacles. Sadly, many descriptions of Capricorn dwell too heavily upon the harsher aspects of Saturn as offering a limiting, self-depreciating and pessimistic outlook. Saturn is a planet of realism with a controlled release of energy which does mark the Capricorn as apparently lacking in creative sparkle and exuberant vivacity. As the Sun enters the sign associated with mid-winter, its power is low and the solar qualities of light, warmth, enthusiasm and brilliance struggle to emerge in recognisable ego traits and personality features. Yet the qualities exist, submerged deep within the character. The fire that animates the Capricorn's spirits is gestating and self-contained, but not to be taken lightly. The Romans celebrated the Sun's ingress into Capricorn as Saturnalia, a festival which welcomed back the return of the Sun's power after the shortest day of the year. The emphasis was on renewal of strength, fertility, and power that originates from the depths of being. As the cardinal earth sign Capricorn portrays the enduring and irrepressible spirit of nature. There is a productive fecundity inherent in the symbolism of the goat-fish that is dismissed too lightly if we fail to explore the deeper meanings of this complex ancient symbol. Many astrologers consider Capricorn to be the most enigmatic and mysterious sign of the zodiac. All of the cardinal signs indicate seats of power and in a creature with the forelimbs of a goat attached to the tail of a fish, the abyss of the ocean is combined with mountainous terrain. This represents a 'cross of matter' between the psyche and its manifestation in the material, drawing the soul out of its collective stupor to confront the challenges of reality and individualism. The ocean, besides symbolising primordial roots, relates to instinctive wisdom, secrets, and knowledge that lies buried within the depths of consciousness. Capricorn, bearing only the tail of an aquatic creature, keeps a head that is free from impressionable thought - at a rational level Capricorns are affected only by what they can define through logic and reasoned assessment, but unconsciously, spiritually and emotionally they draw from the deep. This is a sign that is anything but shallow and superficial; beneath the Capricorn's cool, reserved and calculating exterior lies a profound resource of emotional strength, psychic resilience and earthy endurance. The recognisable character traits of the sign reveal compulsion, dedication and perseverance in its aims and interests. Capricorns may not impress others by their motivation but neither do they seek the easy approval or widespread attention of others. Their ambitions - in relationships, career and personal growth - are rooted in an 'inner' motivation that runs too deep to be easily shaken. Their strengths (and their faults) are based upon the qualities of stamina, fortitude, staying power and survival. Some see the Capricorn's scaly tail as that of the sea-serpent, a creature of 'old knowledge', wise in matters of the occult and offering a potential for understanding beyond limited, earthly experience. Capricorns are known for being 'older than their years' and those who take up the study of mysteries and traditions gravitate towards a masterly knowledge of their craft just as the business minded Capricorn will gravitate towards the managerial position. Mastery and power are the understated keywords of this sign. Even the earthy aspect of the goat is frequently underestimated in its potential for symbolising hidden reserves of strength. There is a feature of the goat that deserves special attention in our understanding of this sign. The name 'Capricorn' draws our attention to it and comes from the Latin caper ('goat') and cornu ('horn') - literally 'the Goat's horn'. In the ancient world horns were symbols of royalty, strength and power, as well as fertility and abundance. Cornucopia in mythology was the goat Amalthea who nourished the infant Jupiter with her milk, though the term remains in use today as the 'copious horn' or 'horn of plenty' which symbolises prosperity and growth. The goat is one of the three horned creatures in the zodiac; these were also the creatures celebrated in ancient religious festivals and used in sacrifice to draw power from the gods. The use of the goat as a 'scapegoat' in the biblical ritual of Atonement (see the star lore of Capricorn) has led to goat deities accumulating a reputation as icons of evil occult powers rather than the neutral symbols of earthly fertility and focused power that was implicit in the older customs. J.E. Circlot, in his Dictionary of Symbols, includes an interesting passage on the symbolism of horns as related by the three creatures of the zodiac; the coiled horns of Aries, the inwardly curved horns of Taurus, and the upwardly pointed horns of Capricorn signifying elevation, power and prestige. He notes that in Egyptian hieroglyphics, horns signify what is above the head and by extension 'to open up a path for oneself'. Horns then, are similar to halos and crowns in denoting princely wisdom and illumination. The theme is repeated in ancient depictions of the sign that replace the horned fore-creature with that of a man but retain the imagery of the crown. In later art we find depictions of Moses bearing horns after his descent from the mountain, indicating the radiance of light and wisdom emitted from his head after the divine contact. Elsewhere horns have adorned battle-helmets since prehistoric times in an attempt to capitalise upon their expression of strength, power and force. Jung recognised the horn as a powerful symbol for fertility and dualism, being both masculine - by its phallic and penetrating shape - and feminine - by its receptive, cup like qualities. The goat's horn thus stands as a representation of the elemental energies of the earth, the prime matter from which the alchemical process begins its quest for the transformation of gold. Alchemists have often related 'prima mater' with lead, the metal of Saturn; though it was also frequently associated with the unconscious and thought to come from the mountains where 'all things are one'. The Rosarium terms prima mater the 'root of itself', being the first principle that separates reason from chaos. Many elements in the symbolism of Capricorn make this one of the most interesting signs in terms of the spiritual undertones conveyed by its imagery. In the ancient world Capricorn denoted a noble, kingly wisdom and earth power associated with those who are 'older and wiser'. In Babylonian mythology it is linked with Ea, 'antelope of the ocean' who brought knowledge and wisdom to mankind and was never subject to fits of emotional disturbance or angry wrath, unlike the other early gods. Drawing from his heritage, Capricorn is the caricature of the wise old sage, the one who has the experience to understand human emotional weakness but enough mastery and control over his 'self' to prevent reason being affected by it. Rudyard Kipling was a Capricorn, and his famous poem 'If' reads like the Bible of Capricornian logic in how to develop true strength as an individual - never by trusting to luck, never by aiming to explode upon the world or seeking glory and hopeful expectation, but only through enduring hardship and refusing to be beaten by it, by patient acceptance that the wheel must spin full term, and by tolerance of the hurt that others will inevitably cast your way. In our modern world Capricorn relates to those who manage and lead in all walks of life, from the Capricorn mother, who governs her household with the firm hand of structure and teaches her children that they should restrain their urge for short term gratification and invest in a 'reputable' future; the Capricorn business manager who may seem somewhat unapproachable but is always in control of his responsibilities, and the Capricorn lover who seeks long-term stability over spontaneity and amorous excitement. Capricorns who have risen to fame have generally done so by taking the hard route, gathering respect for their fortitude, resistance and application. Capricorns don't seek fame for fame's sake, are generally uncomfortable in the public eye, and expect to keep their private life private. Theirs is not a 'what you see is what you get' mentality and all Capricorn professionals draw clear boundaries between that made available for public appraisal and the personal self which is never given up to free and open scrutiny. Capricorns are often accused of being motivated by the acquisition of material comforts and financial security. An important keyword here is respect - Capricorns expect to be treated with respect and are sensitive to taking offence when it is lacking. For many this entails living the traditional 'respectable' lifestyle and drawing around them the material trappings of respectability. Even the lesser off Capricorn can't help but see himself as having a position to hold and may care greatly about 'what the neighbours say' to the exasperation of more liberal or free spirited partners. Above all Capricorn is a conservative sign, rooted in conventional morality and bearing a great deference for history and tradition. This is not the sign of the innovator but the preserver, not the gambler but the investor, often willing to take a risk but only where it has been carefully calculated and measured by reason. Neither do Capricorns 'live for the moment' since their personality is defined by an awareness of time and the ever-present need to safeguard the future. Relationships can be the source of considerable pain unless the right circumstances are met. Capricorns have little instinctive knowledge of how to play the dating game and are too earnest with their emotions to respond to light hearted flirtation with carefree abandon. They can suffer through shyness and are seldom at ease displaying affection. Yet Capricorn is a strongly sexual sign - the goat's horn is a symbol of male virility - and their fixed emotions can cause them to remain locked in grief and disappointment if they fail to win the object of their affection. Within relationships they have a strong sense of duty and commitment. This will be highly satisfactory to some but others may perceive it as unnecessarily restrictive and oppressive. Afflicted, the sign can show a tendency towards control and jealousy. The faults of the Capricorn are always more apparent to those who fall into the opposing personality types. As in all the sunsign faults they arise from a negative appreciation of their strengths. Some may feel that they lack spontaneity and creativity and thus perceive them as boring and uninspiring. Others will view their emotional control as hard and unfeeling, regarding them as unresponsive to their moods and undemonstrative in romantic affairs. Even those that appreciate their reasoned outlook and strategic approach to problems can be disparaged by their composed response, regarding them as demoralising and unnecessarily rigid or pessimistic in outlook. All young people can benefit from the guidance of a Capricorn, although most will find their lessons on the need for patience frustrating. Dignified Planets
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Typical Features
Capricorn takes its 'typical features from its planetary ruler Saturn. The body is described as 'dry', that is, not much flesh on the bones, inclining towards leanness with little by way of curves. The height is medium - not particularly short or tall. The neck is small or long and small, the chest narrow. The hair is thin and generally dark but sometimes white or very pale. There is a lack of colour in the complexion, it may be dark and brooding or pale and wan. There is very often a prominent bone structure or noticeable features such as a narrow chin or ill-shaped knees.

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http://www.skyscript.co.uk/capricorn.html
The Sun glowed in Capricorn, the Sea-Goat, a feminine sign on your birthday. The Sun in astrology stands for our inner nature, revealing the mark of our true character. The tenth sign of the zodiac, Capricorn is ruled by powerful Saturn, the planet of structure and responsibility, but it is the exaltation of Mars, the planet of action and desire! A cardinal (creative and original) sign, Capricorn governs public life and organisation, combined with personal ambition and will to succeed. An earth sign, Capricorn is a loyal associate and faithful friend – although the Goat can be quite possessive and even rather jealous.
Saturn, the lord of karma and emblem of structure, is strong. Tenacious, logical and endowed with the capacity to work hard and long, you rarely hesitate to grasp opportunities for advancement or promotion. You are quite well-grounded, especially later in life (over 40), once you have learnt to overcome those early insecurities. More ambitious than you appear on the surface and a natural executive or manager, you set out to accomplish and are determined to succeed one way or another. Pragmatic and goal-oriented, you soon learn how to get things done, for you aspire to positions of power and authority and admire others who attain such positions.
Keys to Success
Initiative and willingness to accept responsibilities are keys to your success, but a false pride makes it hard for you to admit when you are wrong, or to ask others for help. Though you compete aggressively for what you want, you harbour an inner lack of confidence which can make you defensive. Viewing insecurity and fear as weakness, you attempt to hide such feelings, making it hard for others to get close to you.
Hard-nosed Capricorn reacts by assessing the possible worth of any given situation. The goat is a sure-footed, methodical climber. You are heading for the top of the rock, so you'll gladly work long and hard if it means getting what (or who) you want. The energy and randiness of the goat is proverbial, but you can be very lazy if you see no sense in working, or if you can achieve the same high goals in a less strenuous manner.
Structure and Reality
Your sense of humour is generally impeccable, although you fail to see the point of personal jokes at your expense. You hold grudges and will take revenge for perceived slights. The ancient emblem of Capricorn was the sea-goat, half goat and half fish. This symbolised the death of the lower mind and the birth of the spiritual. The goat was a popular sacrificial animal in days gone by.
Saturn, structure and reality, teaches an understanding of limits in all areas of life. You respond to traditional values, rules and regulations, and proper thought and behaviour at an early age, even if you reject these things later. Without a coherent structure to guide you toward your goals, you risk losing your way. Ambition and enthusiasm fade without such a structure on which to hang them. Once the reality of something is understood, it is much easier to handle and manipulate. You can be a good builder, engineer, politician, lawyer, or business executive.
Youthful Appearance
Lean Capricorn develops good eating habits early, which stand you in good stead as an adult. An innate spirit of competition makes you keen on sports, although you can be so aggressively determined to win, you can be less than gracious when you lose. Jogging, running (especially cross-country), golf, skating, hunting, wrestling, boxing, martial arts, and body-building are favorite activities. Although you probably looked older or more mature when you were young, you seem to defy the aging process, and retain a remarkably youthful appearance from your middle years well into old age.
Capricorn rules the bones and joints (especially the knees), teeth, and skin. Sensitive skin, allergies, and broken bones are problems, while worrying too much can also result in physical disorders. You suffer from insecurity and anxiety in your youth, but blossom under Saturn in your later years.
Your colours are chocolate brown, royal and navy blue, dark green, charcoal grey and red. Capricorn rules metallic lead, while the red garnet is your birthstone, which protects against accidents and falls. In some ancient societies, garnets were worn only by royalty. Capricorn flowers include the camellia, orange blossom, carnation (red), baby's breath, and magnolia.
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Capricorn, symbolized by the Goat, is a Cardinal Earth sign.  Like the goat, Capricorns want to climb to the top of the mountain.  Ruled by Saturn, they are ambitious, determined, persistent and willing to do the hard work necessary to achieve their goals.  Career is important.  Underlying their determination to succeed is a desire for recognition, status, and prestige.  Capricorns are responsible, conscientious, efficient, organized.  They can be domineering, bossy and unforgiving of those who are not as diligent as they are.  Consistent with their Earth energy, they are practical, sensible, down-to-earth, dependable and conservative.  Capricorn is also cautious and somewhat inhibited.
Symbol:  The GoatElement:  EarthModality:  CardinalRuling Planet:  SaturnRuling House:  TenthKey Phrase:  I useKeyword:  Ambition
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Saya anti - anti rasuah

was walking around in sarawak plaza.
saw a cop...was relly bored and thought ild go greet him and make friends...

heres the conversation

wei:*taps police officer on shoulder and scans for his name tag and notices the "saya anti rasuah" badge"
PC: Ya? Boleh saya tolong anda?
wei: oh..nah,..i just thought ill strke a conversation with you regarding the rasuah tag.
PC: oh...macam tu...nm...u tak pernah nampak ka?
wei: no no..tak...i find it funny la. don take this personally ok?
PC: nothing to be ashamed of...i don condone this act.
wei: but sir..out of the records la, will u accept if someone offered you?
PC: depending oso, if its worth it. but normally nola.
wei:but im anti-anti-rasuah bor...how?
PC: o_0
wei: Gotcha! nah...just wanted to see your reaction. you dont mind if i get to know your name do you? In case anythng i can contact u la
PC:err...ummm...
wei: forget it la.



That conversation however...never actually happened. I just saw a policeman with his name tag and the saya anti rasuah badge and was playing with the idea. bleh.

Not meant as an insult to our police force or anything.

I originally intended to tell him I'm also anti rasuah, but i dont have a badge to prove it. Then again, maybe i should have been mean and looked at it closeer and innocently say, nanti has a "n" in front right?



hrmmm...if im not wrong anti anti is termite in bm rite