I am

i am wei
i am wei ping
i am wp
i am clarence
i am cla
i am cla-r
i am klerns
i am hwui
i am ah hwi
i am oh so many people but the same.

i feel so blur. so cold.

no longer shall i try to feel the warmth of her hand.
no longer shall i seek to find the face of an angel
no longer shall i have to try so hard to find another
no longer shall i make myself look like different
no longer shall i scream out loud just to make myself heard
no longer shall i need to try so hard to make thigns work

for when it all ends...its the effort i put in it. even if all fails, its the enregy the heart the experience from it. its not so bad when you think of it.



all i can say is that nothing is always the way it seems

i may have met you today. found what i was looking for and yet not wanting to admit it.

i have not been able to scr3eam and shout all my thoughts...all my emotions...all the conflict within.

i do not see the point of it all..
its not that i havent tried or that i dont want to try.

i just havent decided on both. in fact i dont even want to think of it...

i dont want it to be a permanant thing. i cannot see myself commited into doing all that. yes i am afraid of commitment. I AM AFRAID. see...i said it. theres nothing left to fear.

maybe im not a risk taker by nature. but i want to take this risk so bad. ive take a few before. hell..i even paid for it.