Happy New Year


Currently got nothing much to update about.

Kinda packed oso la..alot of stuff to do..
Must finish by the 22nd Jan...hopefully before the 18th can finish la...but donola...bleh


damn..gonna miss her...less than a month left...owh well..

Merry Christmas

Im feeling lazy to post..so Ill just wish everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!

*fireworks*

Can someone...any one tell me, why…is my internet connection so lousy that it cant even stay connected for more than 3 minutes? This is frustrating. Paying for supposedly unlimited monthly use, and yet I can even use what I pay for…And its not refundable, because the speed used it not under their control. Fair enough. But what point is it that I pay for speeds that are even slower than the of a 56k line?

Sure, there are people with no internet connection…blah blah blah. Well...its not about them. Its about me.

I’m sick of hearing the same old excuses, weather will affect, theres a server breakdown in AMERICA. There’s an underwater cable that stated rusting because there rubber protection decided to give way…lalalallalalala…its becoming annoying. Like the tune that gets stuck in your head. Think of that umm...numa numa song.

And I’m sick of making reports, and not getting any solutions. I have had the whole telephone cable fixed. The whole thing changed. The connection to the ports moved. Still no difference. So what exactly is causing this problem? The technicians all come over and say, oh your line. too much resistance, cannot use. I say, the fucking thing has been changed the day before you came. And the previous person who patched it said its good to go. So now I’m wondering, is the dream of having uninterrupted internet connection possible? Or is this internet addict just going to have to deal with it and go to some support group?

What’s worse is that I NEED the internet now. When I do not need the distraction, its ok, the line is good, no interruptions, but come the holidays, the fucking thing goes haywire. Every year the same thing happens. Need I sacrifice a cow to the Great Internet King?

Bleh!

Swinburne on fire!!!

Belated post. the knnccb of a streamyx doesn’t work in monsoon weather…

Actually not the whole building though I would like it if level 2, 6 and 8 were completely burnt. Some part of the roof was burnt. Some room…not sure if the pump room or the elevator machinery got burnt. Some how its lucky tat this happened after the exams…

I would prefer if during exam. =)

The pics…

Taken from Jalan Mendu. My cam not so power…and I noob in phototaking la hor..

Besieds it’s a camera phone, and its not a 3.2 mega…mine only 2 mega nia…

Taken from the bus stop on the other side of the fly over

Taken from the bus stop in front of Swinburne

As can be seen, it didn’t affect any other levels…and oh…even if it affected the 8^th floor…it’s to be on the other side. wink wink

No one was injured; all the staff members were having their lunch in the auditorium.

And no…the exam papers were not burnt along…so bleh.

HOLIDAYSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!

got nothing to do...no car..no going out...no game...pointless to use comp...

feeling fuckstrated..its past frustration already....

if I have never said this before...then I'll say this now...December is a bloody month...a bad month..november too..for some odd reason..porblems always crop up in these two months. Probably exam stress? or probably my life always goes on playback? its a month full of reflection. Maybe thats why I am more moody.

I am tired of having to keep to being nice, and having to control myself, I want to let go. let go of all problems and not think about them any longer.

Its nothing to do with you, its just that the problems all become amplified during this time. Maye its because December has always been significant, maybe its because of January? I dont know. Maybe I'm trying too hard to run away from all this. I hate this feeling.

Gah! stupid holidays...waste money nia...

ITS OVER!!!!!

sem 2 2006 is officially over...


finishd all me papers...dono pass all..hope alls well la...

old newspaper!

distracted now...bleh...

goin back to making the consilidation entries in a bit...

Some newspaper collecting van passed by
this is what i heard

old newspaper...beli surat khabar lama...nanti kereta rosak...

translation of the malay parts, buying of old newspapers...this vehicle will be/is damaged...

was thinking wtf?!?!

maybe i should actually concentrate..hmm...

4 days left...woo hoo!!!!


cant wait for hols..
donno wanna start work when...
then my 21st, then 4 days later results out...then...about 1 week later...dear leaves to melb...ish annen its dear's bday...muahahah!! celebrate on the plane...i tink...


gah!
back to work

2 down..2 to go

bleh...havent been good lately...paranoid...


ebiz and corp on same day...better do well...
1 more screw up and its delayed one year...fark!

will not screw up...must not...

omost there

finals coming up.

finishing on the 5th

1st paper on the 28th...then..30th...final 2 on 5th...

jj if ur reading this..kia...we go get some caffiene on the 5th nite or sumthing...


bleh,,
then its the countdown to work...annen my 21st...annen having to send dear off to melb...

sometimes its pointless to even try.
some how everything always falls apart.


bleh...currently feeling kinda fucked...

=( i have low bone density..

Apparantly…Im suffering from calcium deficiency. Or that’s what the bone density test says.


Just got back from a free scan at some pharmacy near me house. I was bored ok? Followed dad to get some supplements then I saw the flyer…figured I should try. Wanna know why I kept breaking my bones or injuring myself mar…

Apparantly, its only ok for those above 21 to scan their bones…coz the machine is stupid that way. Hahaha

I have the bone density of a 40 year old male. Wtf?!?!?!?

A normal male in the 20s should have the density of 104, mine is like an man aged close to 40…or 40 which is 80. Wahhah...actually roughly 88 la. But hehe.


Think this is due to me not exercising at all…SwinGym here I come!!!

Now Im gonna hafta go do a high calcium diet. Bleh


hehehe

Every sesmester should start with a theme. the theme for this sem shall be project 3.0.
For all those that do not understand, project 3.0 is a project which i am planning and burning to go into.

3.0 is a symbolisme for my aims for this semester in my studies as well as extra curricular activities. the reason i chose this number is beacuse of this fact: for a 2nd class upper honors level, the cgpa has to be at least 3.3. that means that consistantly scoring minmum of 2 C and 2 D. However. as my aim is to infact raise my cgpa which is in shit mode, i shall be targetting a 3 C and 1 D/HD for my current semester's results.


I suppose i should i can say at this moment, I feel inspired. at least i have found some form of motivation. the motivating factor: most companies want good results. and if i even wanna think of joining the Big 4...i have a bloody long way to go. Evne smaller companies want better than best results.

this is what project 3.0 is about.

3 also symbolises the number of months i have arranged to ensure that i will change my life as it is. in 3 months...i plan to see a more studious me. a more serious me. *mebbe more crap on my blogs than in real life* and hopefully a more fitter if not leaner me.

3 months of no supper. ahh..the results better pay off.
the purpose of writing this is to remind myuself of the importance of this project.

owh well...now i'll have to start asking for loadsa help. if i dont go to the nut house. its all worth it.

a toast, to myself, for the success of this project.

-wei-

yay!! hols are over

weee!!!its the start of a new semester...im so happy to be back studying. owh wow...fantastic man. i can imagine seeing ew ppl..and prolly working wif otheres. its fun man...

bs. repeating another fuckign subject...mcb.
need to pia. the plan...effective monday. msn at 1030 pm onwards
rest of the time study or do something productive...like maybe write a story. or study. or revise. or make a sodding timetable tat i can stick to.

i need a 3 for my cgpa. not enuf as of now...fark it.

lalalala

this has been loadsa fun. weee!!!!!!!!

bleh..

4meme

Hen jus tagged me to do this. So bleh.


4 jobs I would stink at:

1. Statistician (correct spelling?) Did I mention it before…I don’t really like numbers…bleh
2. Musician: I cant even read music notes…And I don’t/can’t play any instruments
3. Law Enforcer: Waahahahahaha...you get my point.
4. physicatrist: I would love to be one. But I think me patients/client would be beaten to death if they bore me…
4 nicknames I’m making up for myself:

1. Wei
2. Wabbit
3. Cla
4. Clarey

4 movies I can watch over and over:

1. 50 First Dates
2. American History X
3. Fast and Furious Series
4. umm..pass?

If it were song I think should be easier for me to say tho…

4 alcoholic beverages I enjoy from time to time:

1. St Miguel
2. Some Japanese whisky…forgot the name
3. Tuak…
4. ummm…pass again?

Trying not to drink…bleh…bad for health you know. =P

4 fantastic destinations I would like to go to on vacation before I pass out:

1.Some random European country
2. China
3. South America
4. Some unnamed continent in which I can run away to.


4 things I love to do on weekends:

1. Chatting
2. Reading
3. Surfing the web
4. I’ll tell you when I’ve figured the fourth one out.

4 celebrities I would like to go on a big date with:


1. Alexis Bledel (don worry, you’re better than her k?)
2. Keira Knightley
3. Julia Stiles
4. Reese Witherspoon



4 objects I could not live without:

1. Computer
2. Handphone
3. Internet (that an object?)
4. Cars


Lets see…I did a survey on this and Im giving the same stupid answers

4 gadgets I do not have, which I would like to have:

1. iPod Nano
2. A new Laptop
3. Sony Ericsson K800
4. Plasma TV

4 “poor souls” tagged:

1. Linda
2. Cassie
3. Boinks
4. who ever reads my blog


Muahahaha!!! Now write people…write…

Im tired. And grouchy. Havent been able to sleep since yesterday. Bad timing. It keeps replaying and my imagination keeps it to that point. Im tired. I need rest. I dont want to know anymore. I dont even feel like caring. Maybe I should give up. Wasnt so tough when i planned it. the process was bad. When I try to sleep, I keep thinking...why??? No answers.

I dont really want to care any moire. Ill leave it as it is. Im really confused right now with what i intend to do about it. Ill let time take its place.


to someone who played a rather significant role in the past.

you know what. This is exactly why i never could find someone better or like you. I am indecisive. You were exactly what I wanted. But I never saw it that way. I thought it was something else. Its been years. You've got your new friends, I have mine. I took a while to walk off everything. I wouldnt have learnt if it wasnt coz of you. I thank you for everything. Even though you wont ever see this. You were right all along. You prpbably would never know what i felt that time. you should probably not also. I dont want you to see me that way. I missed you so fucking much then. IT wasnt easy being in the same fucking class, sitting a few tables away. Maybe you felt that way too. I dont know.

This seriously feels like an old scar being ripped open and left to bleed. I dont know if you even know this. I never explained. There is no point revisiting the past. Live for today. you was always the one I based all on. Now Im going back into depression mode whenever I think of you again. I dont see why I had to do what I did.

Rather fuked up...

Now you know wy I dont want to meet you when you get back or even call you when you;re there. Friends sure. But I dont know if i actually ever moved on at all.



To someone else who may be reading this blog


You may never understand. I 've been trying to make you see all this while. And when someone else comes into the picture...I feel stupid. What is it that makes you tick? Im still trying to figure you out. I bet you knew it all along. I dont know any more. All I know is that I want you.

Right…exams over…I’m not exactly in a holiday mood. Need to drown out all my thoughts…Alcohol session anyone? I’ve got 2 bottles of sugarcane tuak and I’ll share one with you (if you end up getting so high and humping a lamp post I will not be held responsible)…


Was tagged a while back…think last month…too lazy to write this out and was kinda trying to rush me studies. So bleh.

Im supposed to come up with 8 different point about my perfect lover. Hmmm…

OK…the first one...

Gender : I’m into girls…still…sorry guys…

The different points ar…unh…physical or personal ? Nm la…later you all call me horny and perverted.

1. She has to be…around my height.
2. Someone I can talk to without and look at getting bored.
3. Doesn’t smoke drinking is fine…smoking is annoying.
4. She definatly has to accept me for being me.
5. She has to be able to communicate with ME, my friends and family (that’s a bit further down the road)
6. She should be able to cook la…I mean…seriously…Its not that hard to make maggi mee with meat balls and an egg ok?
7. She should be caring, to everyone…but me more important la…all about me what. (if this really happens its gonna be I love her…she loves me and I love me)
8. Sporting and supportive.

Actually can list a lot more le…but Im a bit lazy right now…

Bleh…I tag…Whoever is reading this. Muahahaha!

searching for the true wei

Dear God,


I know its been a while since i've actually sat down and actually thought about you.
I also know that its been a while since I've actually been rational. I know I havent been repenting, and I havent even bothered to think about anything.


Its a trend isnt it? Everytime I feel depressed or get involved in things I cannot control or when I get near to my examinations, I turn to You? Then when everythign is over...I'm back to where I was.

I dont know if that dream I had was a message from you. I've stopped dreaming..or maybe I just cant remember any dreams, You should know, after all you do know everything, even this letter I'm typing.

I dont know what snapped. Maybe it was the pressure of following you ways, maybe I just couldnt turn my back against the wishes of my family, maybe I'm just plain indecisive. Ahh...being indecisive, that is another matter we should look at wouldnt we?

I dont know what is real anymore.

I'm sure that dream was a message, a wake up call of sorts. I just wanted to say that it still bothers me when I think of it.


I'll get back to you soon. I need some time to actually complete my revision.

And oh, can I ask of you to help me in rediscovering myself? and also in everythign else?

For now, like usual the only thing I want to ask if for peace of mind. A calm breeze that cools me, a hunger to learn, the will to succeed, and teh raw confidence that I need to score for this exams. I know...its late...I started really late.

Thank You.
-wei-

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writing for oneself is teh best thing to do. allows one to analyse thier own private thoughts. questions oneself in ways others dare not or never considered.


i write for my own entertainment.
what i think is funny may not appeal to others. what i do may be offensive to some.

i am bored.

exams soon.
im not so screwed for now...i finally understand how to do mdm...job order/process costing...i feel so proud...PROUD!!! hey...i did it slowly...guess i shud b passing tat sub. fis...not too sure..i knwo my problems are in depreciation...and the bank reconciliation...mainly...and unh...the shares thingy...i have not much idea...never paid much attention in class...law...pretty much screwed still...never written one single essay...cept for the ones in the test...hope i wont screw this round.


bleh

this is getting worse...it was just a mild pain a few months back...now the pain is more intense...i cannot stand up for long periods...i cannot sit for too long...and i cannot sleep on my side...which doesnt really matter..coz i sleep on my tummy...hehe...but when i wake...i can start feeling the pain...


Its either that i fell on my back...or i was hit in some fight before...cant remember why. i think is more like i twisted my back. every year its the same...i think i better go get this problem checked.

argh...think ill go for a nice body massage and tell the massuese(that how its spelt?) to help me out...bleh..dono any chiropractors and i dont want to be put in a brace and have to constantly go hospital for treatment...


fark...im not even 21 and im already feeling this. some how it makes me not so optimistic about my own future health


owh...i read an article...sed something bout stretching it...rock climbing...Kuching got rocks meh?

bleh...prolly will have to put on hold the kayaking expeditions till i get my back fixed...

Been listenign to robbie williams alot. theres this one song...cat remember which...i think its advertising space. one of the lyrics...im not afraid of dying, i just dont want.


for some reasons it reminds me of some stuff that happed a while back. bleh...unhappy memories. was thinking of it again lately...what would happen if i were to die? what have i done? what impact and influence have i made on the lives of others? what would they say about me? what would be the memories of me that they would treasure most?

would they remember me even if ive been gone for a while? would they even bother still?

i figure theres like a few thing those taht know me would remember...my whacked ideas, the disturbing glimpses to my darker more temperamental side, and the lollipop boy.


no...im not suicidal....just thinking...i mean...we wont know what would happen next. we cannot predict the future...we cannot live for yesterday...and we cannot live for today....we need to live for tomorrow. if you dont get me...its like this...what you do today would influence what would happen to you tomorrow. i cant really explain it...but its like one of the newton laws...for every action there is an equal reaction...its like yin and yang.


no restart buttons in life. mite as well apologize and appreciate those around me while im still living...


so here....

i apologize for what ive said, what ive done to hurt you all. i understand that its prolly too late to undo somethings that i should have never done.

tis is one to someone. i dont know if you read this blog..but screw it...i apologized...a sorry like you said means nothing anymore

i cant take back those words. its not like i still can have you here with me. theres nothing left in between us...we are only acquaintances now.


bleh. screw it...over for so long. was fun while it all lasted.

so heres one for my friends and to those who know me.


its been a great ride. its been a blast knowing all you peeps...i cant tell you how much i appreciate you guys.thanks for everything..even if you didnt give me anythign...wahaha...*grin*

to my family...thanks for all teh support and everything, even though ive been abrat you put up with it and i appreciate you all for it.


and no...this is not a suicide note ok?

i still got a good 60 years (80 is kinda old liaw hor??)