and so it is ...

apparantly i talk alot of crap when im high. ranging from drunk dialing to talking about how hot the guy/gal is at the other table and how badly i wanna shag them. kinda uintersting. apparantly bisexuality is frowned upon. but then again im actually straight and would talk random crap.

if you work hard. u deserve to play hard. yea. whatever happens outside office hours stays outside. work is work. play is play. if you see me playing. dont ask.ust know this. i cannot afford to get stressed. if i get stressed. i will jusst give up. well...kinda..so i cannot get too stressed. a bit is fine. so if you see me playing...yea...im doing it for the kicks.

dont tell me its unprofessional. how exactly is professional exactly that?
i dont say which company im from.i odnt say what my actual job is. i dont say what i do for a living or give my actual name or my main mobile number.

oh..i found a better prepaid number...considering to switch or not. haih...sien...thats wad happens when i do things for fun. dont think. just do. have fun while ur at it.

thinking too much is bad.

im caught in between wanting to go for it...or to juz lay back...be normal for a bit.

i donno if im actually ready to try it.


looking back at the past 22 years.

1. i tried clubbing/pubbing...didnt work. i find it stupid.
2. i tried puffing. apparantly...im wasting money. and doing it halfhheartedly. so screw that. i am not interested. taste horrid. isnt cool.
3. i tried some other activities. not so great stuff. kinda gets old.
4. tried working. still trying.
5. tried to be more spontaneous. not reli working.
6. tried the idea of hanging out. is great fun. kinda enjoy it.
7. tried beng myself. question is...who am i really? or am i just a great pretender?


resolutions for this year? basically the same. i tink of it as more of goals rather than resolutions...later will feel great failure if i don hit any

i'll prolly tok more crap.
try to be less loso.
be a teetletoller. however u spell it.
lose a bit of weight. start to exerciae
start a expenses journal.
eat less. kinda crazy but may just work.
work harder. travel. that inclides work related ok...
\\kk..fuckign sleepin now,
nits